Friday, August 17, 2007

YAWN… yawn….. yawn….. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
I've been waking up at about 4AM every day (well, and 12:30 and 2, etc., but finally throwing in the towel at 4AM) because of this frickity frackity workload. I can't stop thinking about the stuff that needs to be done by the end of next week and then there's nothing to do but get up and dig in. I can usually convince myself to go back to sleep if it's before 4AM, but after that, I'm wide awake.

Well, wide awake probably isn't the best way to describe it. The term "zombie" would be closer to the truth. A zombie that's able to function, but still LOOKS like a zombie.

PS- high five to Stew for this find!

Not only do I put in 12-14 hour days on my telecommute days, I come home and work after I get home from the office on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I'm also working the weekends (in between gardening and social obligations). I tell people that this is why I get paid the (relatively) big bucks. I doubt many people would do what I'm doing, given the circumstances.

So this morning, per usual, I started up at 4ish and then at about 6AM fell fast asleep on the couch with my trusty work laptop on my lap. The bearded eye-roller came down at about 7AM to go to work and thought that was a pretty funny sight. I'm glad he woke me up because I was having a nightmare that he was angry with me because I couldn't understand a word he was saying. He'd developed this heavy accent and was completely unintelligible. He was angry because he said that I wasn't trying hard enough to understand him.

Go ahead and analyze that one. I have NO idea what that's about because BER is one of the very few things that keeps me feeling calm, safe and relaxed right now.

Chime in on this one, if you will. I've read theories that there is a stress hormone that we produce when under a lot of stress. This hormone makes you gain weight. I can't seem to budge the scale (unless it's to go up), no matter WHAT I do. I could probably be accused of not eating enough these days, actually. I'm either too busy or too tired to care about food.

I've been staying away from sugar, exercising consistently, drinking lots of water and eating very small portions. My typical day consists of an iced americano, a protein shake (made with water, not milk) a little later in the morning; a salad with chicken or turkey in it for lunch; and a small salad and VERY small amount of meat at night (maybe 5 bites). No carbs to speak of unless it's in the form of a vegetable.

I've packed on 5 lbs in the last month and it's driving me completely insane. I've worked too hard to get this weight off and I desperately do not want to see it come back. I have too many cute clothes (tee hee).

In other news...

RisibleGirl was blabbing on about her adventures again on 08/17 at 09:32 AM

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