Several times a day since Friday, subconscious thoughts come bubbling to the surface. I find myself saying out loud, "Wow, I have a whole other family out there". It's still very surreal.

Being the introspective person that I am (sorry cuz- it's just who I am), I keep wondering about the timing. Why now?

In a way, I'm really glad that I didn't find my biological father while he was alive. I'm not sure I could have handled knowing him and then losing him to such a horrible violent death. Maybe this is why I was unable to ever find him. Maybe I was not meant to experience that because I'm awfully tender hearted. Who knows what that would have done to me.

I'll still have an opportunity to know him through the stories that I'll hear from his mother, brother and sisters and hopefully through my two half-sisters. My aunt told me that he had a really great laugh. For some reason, just that thought alone makes me smile. Laughter is one of my favorite sounds.

I'm so glad that I'll get to meet my grandmother before she's gone. 92 years old. Wow. I hope that gene pool runs strong.

Again, WOW. I have a whole other family out there.

Wow. Wow. Wow. I've always wanted this day to happen, I just never thought it would.