Yeah, yeah yeah... I know- I've not been very 'social' these days. I've been trying to stay offline except to search for jobs. Otherwise, I've been working in my yard, meeting up with friends/family, playing with Einstein and other offline activities.

Anyhoo...

I predict that I'm going to have a job interview this week. No, it's not with Psychic Friends... I just have a feeeeeeeeeeeeeling.

I'm starting to give up on the idea of running my own business. I had a really good conversation with someone a couple of weeks ago that gave me a few things to think about. Y'all know that I love *doing*. I don't love marketing, nor do I love the schmoozing that goes along with it (although admittedly I'm great at it) because it takes away from focusing on the work. I like getting my hands in the mud and creating things that solve problems. Sure, I'm creative and that has to be a part of ANYTHING that I do. My strength is in my analytic mind. I'm proud of the fact that I can stand back, look at a problem and figure out a way to make that problem disappear.

I'm starting to focus in the idea of getting a J.O.B. I am becoming more and more aware of my obsession with money and the ability to pay the bills. I remember when I was one of the top loan officers in the company, making LOADS of money and all I could focus on was "what will happen when this stops?" Maybe I'm not cut out to be self-employed.

There's something to be said about having that monthly paycheck. There's also something to be said for not breaking down in tears several times a week because I'm freaked out about money. We know how obsessive I can be. It's getting ugly in my noggin', really really ugly.

I have been applying for oodles of jobs every week, but now I'm opening up my mind to possibilities that I hadn't considered in the past- because what I've been applying for hasn't gotten me anywhere.

In fun news- we're taking Einstein to a puppy play date in about 45 minutes. I can't wait to see if he plays with those alien creatures we like to call dogs. So far, two visits to the dog park have been a complete bust and meeting dogs on the street isn't striking his fancy much either.

...bless his heart.