Something must really be bothering me. I haven't quite figured out what yet, most likely due to my ability to put things away in little boxes until I'm ready to deal with them.

I've been impatient at work, I've been weepy at home, and I've been having nightmares every night. Until I get to the bottom of what is bothering me, I can only expect more of the same.

First night: (more funny than nightmarish, I suppose...) We're presently considering buying a house. I had a dream/nightmare the other night that the loan processor called me and said that they had to lower the loan amount that we were trying to qualify for because they found out that we were having twins. They went on to draft a whole list of all of the costs involved in having twins, even down to the furnature.

Second night: The flying monkeys from the Wizard of Oz were taking away all my friends and family. I was fighting them off as best as I could, but they still got the people I cared about and flew off with them.

Third nightmare: I was in a park and someone kept yelling at me. I hauled off and beat them up and threw them as far as I could. They ended up being thrown against a brick wall (yards and yards away) and laid there unconscious. Nightmarish for me because I was horrified that I could do such a thing. I run away from conflict every chance I get. I'd never inflict violence on anyone; no matter what.

Fourth nightmare: A person living on the streets kept following me and asking me for money. I wouldn't give it to him. Everyone found out about it and ostracized me.

Is it any wonder that I'm avoiding going to sleep lately?