I had planned to work all weekend because I have a HUGE project I'll need to start on next week. I need to finish two training projects before that project and my plan was to tie it all up this weekend.

Do you think I can concentrate? That'd be a big fat NO. I've only been able to work on my project in bits and pieces because my brain is so jumbled with thoughts and emotions. I've been composing a letter with pictures to my grandmother and plan to mail that off on Monday or Tuesday. I've also been talking to my sister and husband, and a bit to my mother about it. But mostly I've just been trying to process the whole thing in my head.

Being the internet sleuth that I am, I tracked down my half-sister's phone number even though it appears to be unlisted. I called her late this afternoon and we had a wonderful chat. I felt comfortable with her instantly and I think she felt the same way. I can imagine being called by someone you barely knew existed would be quite a shock, but she was so gracious about it. She said she didn't know I existed until my aunt told her about me right after my b-fathers funeral.

We are almost exactly two years apart, with our birthdays being only 4 days from each other. The other half-sister is four years younger than me.

We verbally compared our features over the phone. The youngest sister and I both have dark curly hair just like my b-father. This sister has lighter brown straight hair. They have blue eyes, and I have green eyes. My b-father had blue eyes. She said that the younger sister has a son that looks just like my b-father. I have a son that looks like my b-father. It'll be interesting to compare their pictures.

I've been so curious about the father I never knew, but I've also been curious about rest of the family. It looks like I'll get the opportunity to get to know them and add them to the people I call family.

It's funny.... I used to feel guilty about wanting to track down my b-father. I felt like it was being disloyal to my dad. Now I have the same feelings about connecting with my half-sisters because it feels sort of disloyal to my sister and brothers. I know that they understand and would do the same thing in my shoes. It's not like I'm trying to replace them. Everyone who reads my blog knows how much I adore my siblings.

I've sent off an email full of pictures and links to my half-sister. I'm looking forward so seeing the information she sends me.

Can I say it again?

WOW.

(going back to work now)