Over the last two weeks or so, the spot where I bonked my head in January has become REALLY tender. It never hurt in the past, so I'm wondering if all the sudden the nerves in that area are healing or something. I think it's strange that all the sudden my head would hurt six months after I hit it (the second time). I'm trying to not make something out of this other than what it is. The hypochondriac in me worries that this, coupled with being really tired and some of my old symptoms (wobbling when I'm standing, confusion, jaw clenching, feeling like I'm being pulled to the right when I'm walking, tingly hands and feet) getting worse add up to something bad. I refuse to call my doctor unless things get out of control. I don't feel that I'm at that point yet.

I have been taking Requip for a month now. At first, it helped with the jerking- but the effect seems to be wearing off. I have a follow-up appointment with my neurologist next month, so I'll bring that up to see if the medication needs to be increased. The jerking is most prominent when I've been sitting still for a long time, especially if I've engaged in any sort of strenuous activity. BJ has mentioned that I've been jerking pretty severely when I'm sleeping. Thank goodness the "drugs that would knock an elephant out" keep me sleeping through all of it. Maybe I should give some to BJ so he can sleep, poor guy.

We went to dinner with my long time friends (the Hospice club) on Sunday. We go WAY too long between get-togethers. It's been over a year since we've seen each other. Since that time, one had a recurrence of breast cancer (last time was 17 years ago) and had to have a mastectomy and chemo; I'd bonked my head twice; and one of them broke up with their long-time (over 10 years) partner. We've kept in touch via email, of course, so we all knew what was going on in everyone's lives. I didn't tell any of them about my bonked head in our email exchanges, but it came up at dinner.

I told them that this head-bonking stuff was actually a good lesson for me. I told them that my IQ was lost for a while and I learned what it was like... interrupted by all of them saying at the same time, "To be like everyone else".

That made me laugh. I really don't see myself as being THAT smart, but apparently I give off that impression.

Truly, I don't regret bonking my head. I don't enjoy it, but I know that there was a lesson in there for me. I've been able to figure out one or two of the things I was meant to learn from this experience, but I'm positive that there is more and that's why I'm not 'done' with the experience.

I know that sounds weird, but it's what I believe.

Again, I'm rambling. I haven't had time to really 'think' lately and I know I'm not going to have time for a few days, so I wanted to clear my head of a few things before they're lost for good.

Now I can hang my gone fishin' sign. Adios until Monday.