I'm sure that's what most of you are wondering. I can't recall a time since I've owned a computer that I didn't turn it on every day and surf the net. In the past two or three weeks, there have been several days that I've ignored my former friend- the internet.

I've just lost the love right now.

Dear Internet,
It's not you, it's me.
Love, RG

No need to worry, I'm not in some deep dark well of depression- I'm just not feeling motivated to turn on my computer for anything other than work right now. I'm not even playing with my N800 on the train. I'm just listening to music and staring out the window.

Come to think of it, I don't seem to feel motivated for much of anything. TV? yawn. Books? yawn. Internet? yawn. Shopping? yawn. Gardening? yawn. Housekeeping? Thank goodness I have a service. Talking on the phone? OK, never did like that. Sitting in a chair and staring at the wall? Yay!

Hmmmmm... the light-bulb just turned on as I wrote that last paragraph out. I wonder if I'm off-kilter somehow. I wonder if it's the drugs. I just don't feel any excitement for ANYTHING. I like the excited RG. She's a helluva good time. The blah RG? Not so much. She's boring.

I guess I'm glad I decided to buck up and write something because I clearly wasn't thinking about how many things I'm not excited about anymore. Or rather, the fact that there are few things that do excite me (those frickity frackity dark chocolate M&Ms still bring a smile to my face, for example.)

I do feel passionate and excited at work though (still thinking this through.... bear with me....). I can turn on the excitement when needed- but then it turns right off when nobody is looking. I gave a one hour presentation yesterday and you'd have thought I wanted to marry the topic because I was so energetic about it. But afterward? Blah.

I do have much to write about though. I'm taking Monday off from work (we're leaving on a trip tonight, back on Sunday), maybe I'll write then.