I just canceled that job interview. I can't even begin to justify a daily five hour commute five days a week. Not in a zillion years. It would be one thing if it was on the train, as was my previous job, but this would be driving the entire way to and fro.

I hope that my email to her letting her know my reasons for canceling made sense and was professional. I told her that it was an extremely hard decision on my part because the job itself sounded amazing.

I ended the brief email with:

"Thank you so very much for the opportunity to interview with you, but I know how the job market is so I know that you must be horribly busy with interviews for this position. I don’t want to add to your burden.

If you have any future contracting possibilities for any of the pieces of this position, I’d be extremely interested in talking to you."

I then gave her a link to a sample of my work if she was interested.

I feel uneasy about this, because I know this job would pay very well and there would be lots of cool places to travel. Right now I'm working with potential, nothing permanent. I've said this before and I'll say it again, I have no problem playing Russian Roulette with my own future- but now I have to think about The Hubs (and lil' Einstein!). Of course the job wasn't in the bag, so maybe I'm feeling guilty over NOTHING!

Motto for today: Build it and they will come.

Can I hear an "Amen"?