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Still stunned
Several times a day since Friday, subconscious thoughts come bubbling to the surface. I find myself saying out loud, "Wow, I have a whole other family out there". It's still very surreal. Being the introspective person that I am (sorry cuz- it's just who I am), I keep wondering about the timing. Why now? In a way, I'm really glad that I didn't find my biological father while he was alive. I'm not sure I could have handled knowing him and then losing him to such a horrible violent death. Maybe this is why I was unable to ever find him. Maybe I was not meant to experience that because I'm awfully tender hearted. Who knows what that would have done to me. I'll still have an opportunity to know him through the stories that I'll hear from his mother, brother and sisters and hopefully through my two half-sisters. My aunt told me that he had a really great laugh. For some reason, just that thought alone makes me smile. Laughter is one of my favorite sounds. I'm so glad that I'll get to meet my grandmother before she's gone. 92 years old. Wow. I hope that gene pool runs strong. Again, WOW. I have a whole other family out there. Wow. Wow. Wow. I've always wanted this day to happen, I just never thought it would. RisibleGirl was blabbing on about another adventure on 07/24 at 10:32 AM
Go visit Einstein's blog!   Drunken Lagomorph wrote:
I'm so very happy for you!  I too wonder if it would have been better to find my biofam when my mother was still alive, but knowing her problems (as told by her friends) maybe it's best I didn't have to watch the way she died, or risk being disappointed by her reception when I found her. Like you, I'm not going to second-guess the timing of the whole thing.  Joker wrote:
HUGS HUGS HUGS!!! I know what you mean about laughter. The sound of others laughing gives me so much pleasure. even if they are laughing at me and not my jokes or antics. it developed at a very young age as a mask, but stuck on as a part of me...which i enjoy now. and i am really happy that i have met you. Enjoy your newfound family - and completedness!!!*HUGS* Next entry: I spoke with one of my half-sisters today Previous entry: Tagged! In case you're wondering.... On this day clear back in 2008 I wrote: American Idol On this day clear back in 2007 I wrote: Italy trip 5/6 through 5/9 On this day clear back in 2006 I wrote: My kitchen was FINALLY put to good use On this day clear back in 2005 I wrote: What does your birthdate mean? On this day clear back in 2005 I wrote: Conspiracy Theory |
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